With the arrival of (nearly) Spring I feel like I am beginning to come out of hibernation. I’m starting to come off auto-pilot more and more frequently and to engage my brain again. So I hope if I still have any blog readers left you will leave a comment to say hi (so I know I’m not talking to myself!) and bear with me while I feverishly knit my way through the crafting backlog. I have lots to share over Spring!
January and our IVF cycle is coming closer by the day and I think of it more and more. There is no reason why it won’t work although the occasional small doubt does take root. As yet another friend gets pregnant, another one gives birth or another one adopts I feel so happy for them but at the same time it burns inside. The internal battle of it should be me fighting to the death with I’m so happy for them. Sometimes one wins, sometimes the other. But the tears dry, the mood passes and I know that one day it will be me. There’s just no way it could not be me eventually. I’m anti-depressent free and feeling good, have hit a record new weight loss (24.8kg lost!) and have every reason to keep hopeful.
Dave’s sister has a gorgeous new house and has a friendly neighbouring chicken. It has me pondering the possibility of us having a few. Home laid eggs…mmmm. I wonder what the cats would think.