I got my blood test results yesterday afternoon and am happy to report that my estrogen (technically I think it’s oestrodial) levels are getting there. Like most parts of my life it seems I’m just being a little bit slow about it. Bloody typical. But I feel much more postive now there’s progress. After Tuesdays low levels I flipped out totally and got really paranoid. But now I am a lot calmer. Because lets be honest – there’s very few parts of my life where I’m not just a wee bit slow. World’s slowest knitter (finally up to the sleeves), world’s slowest wheeziest runner, I’m not always a lightning fast thinker for that matter. But I get there in the end on all those occasions and I will on this one too. I have a scan on Sunday morning to check the progress in there and the scan results will help determine what day we are hopefully looking at for egg collection. Until then I have sleeves to knit. One day soon I’ll have a baby who grows far too fast for their mama’s liking so I guess I’ll try savour these slow days while I have them. Although I might try to knit just a wee bit faster. My ‘To Knit’ list is enormous.
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I’m about halfway through knitting my 6-12m Beyond Puerperium and I’m beginning to think it was not the best size to make straight after a newborn one. This thing is big. Babies go from that little to this big in under a year? Yikes. But anyway I still love that colour. I can just imagine my little curly dark haired monster in it one day soon. Next blood test tomorrow and then if it says good things the next 10 days are going to get real crazy.
I am almost halfway through IVF…or am I a little over halfway? Well either way you know what I mean. The days are running together but I’m at a point where I can see the end. I have had some fierce symptoms this past week and none of them have been fun. I feel both mentally and physically drained. Insomnia on an epic scale, moodiness, constant tummyache, bad memory, it’s all beating me up! I’m so tired that sometimes my knitting progress is counted in stitches rather than rows. Before I began treatment I decided that even if it was a bit rough I could surely finish 7 baby items in 7 weeks. This is numbers 5 & 6 and now I’ll just be happy to finish one of them. And how funky is that aqua?! So glad I bought it after all.
(My first blood test is tomorrow. Fingers crossed it says what it should!)
Not particularly the best photo but man, I am PROUD of this little cardigan. There’s a whole lot of love knitted into it. That must be why it took so long – I knit SO much love and hope into it that I had to take longer so it would all fit. Yes, that must be it. That sounds much nicer than the other possibility – that I’m just bone dead lazy! First raglan shaping, first item of baby clothing more involved than a pebble vest, first time that I hit gauge exactly, first magic loop. I learnt a lot on this little thing. And it is hopefully the first piece of clothing my first and only babe gets to wear when they are born. That’s a lot of pressure for one humble cardigan! Oh and the sleeves are the same length, even if this photo says otherwise!
I am really liking 2012. SO much more than 2011. 7 days in and I can just tell, this year is going to be a good one. Last year had too many crappy things to count. This year has started with yarn, knitting, a trip to the beach, holding a baby, picking home grown food, a weight loss (25.9kg/57lb total lost!) and tomorrow is The Day. The Day we start IVF!! Yep, it’s here! Admittedly the first two weeks is actually just me taking the pill (as in the contraceptive pill!) every day! Hello acne face. But then the injections start. The first injected drug mimics menopause. Ironic or what? Birth control pills then fake menopause to make a baby. So after the acne I then get hot flushes, night sweats, blinding headaches and even more tired than usual. Then the next injections after that give you uncomfortable bloating as the follicles (where the eggs grow) grow abnormally large. My kid isn’t even conceived and it’s already causing me nothing but frustration.
Broke my new years goal not to buy any yarn until mid March. Twice. On January 1st. Totally worth it. I’m going to do it again next week I think. The white is handspun locally and the money I spent helps support micro development in Myanmar. And the grey is semisolid hand-dyed merino superwash. Like I said…totally worth it.
Since I broke my first goal on Day 1 it seemed appropriate to replace it with a goal I actually have a chance of keeping. Challenge my knitting abilities (learn short rows, magic loop and continental style knitting) and knit one item of baby clothing a month. I am a slower than slow knitter so this will be an exercise in focusing. And item one involves raglan shaping, magic loop sleeves and generally paying more attention than I have ever paid before.
We went up to Otaki beach yesterday and had fruit ice cream and a walk on the beach. Man, summer rules!
(Rav notes here)
This is my second try at making this bonnet. The first try ended badly when I made a mistake I couldn’t figure out – and it was about midnight so that didn’t help. I was three rows from the end. There was throwing and swearing involved. But it was probably for the best because it was too big and the yarn I was using was slightly too scratchy. So this time I cast on the number of stitches listed on the pattern and took a leap of faith. And lo and behold it came out exactly the right size. I left out the hideous lace and went for a plain look. The yarn is Malabrigo Worsted in the Pollen colourway. I am not the hugest fan of Malabrigo but man it is softer than soft. I have plans to knit a little pair of pants to match then maybe a little white cardigan.(And I can report that cats look frickin’ adorable in a bonnet. And a little bit hilarious. But they don’t appear to like it when you fall about laughing at them. And they DON’T hold still for photos.)
And perhaps a little IVF update for anyone still reading my blog? Yes? We are so so close now. We start early to mid January. I had my final (everytime I say that there ends up being just one more) appointment at the fertility clinic a few days ago. My AMH test (it shows roughly how many eggs you have left) came back showing great results so the drugs I have to take will be low. I got my first drugs – the contraceptive pill. They start IVF with a course of the pill then you inject yourself with something that mimics menopause. Crazy! We apparently have to see a nurse at some stage to show me (us) how to inject the drugs. Dave is bloody well coming to that one in case I panic. I will have to inject my tummy every day for about a month. All for a 45% chance of success. Pffft. I told him if it fails he’s buying me a bloody diamond. A real one.
The flags sat around for nearly 5 months waiting for me to learn how to pick up stitches and be able to finish it the way I wanted. Eventually I just admitted that to learn the technique I would have to actually try the technique. I learned to pick up stitches and relearned how to cast on at the end of the row so I could make the cord the way I wanted. And what do you know, it was easy after all. And now I have pretty rainbow bunting that makes me happy to look at. I am never too old for rainbows.
(tutorial from here)
I am doing a swap with Glenda this year and I sent her a pincushion I knitted. She got it today so I can finally blog about it. When I showed a photo to my gran she loved it and made me make her one too. For some reason it’s smaller and tighter than my first one, possibly some sort of reflection on the stress in my life that week? I don’t need to keep a diary, my life is reflected through my knitting tension.
I meant to show off this little vest ages ago but buying the buttons unexpectedly turned out to be a torture of epic proportions. And crazy expensive. Don’t tell me that little buttons the size of a rat poop really cost that much. But here it is in it’s super soft, gender neutral, slightly long and thin sweetness. Pebble vests are known to be highly addictive and now I know I can make one fairly quickly I plan to make many more. But not just yet. The button buying torture still haunts me.